Sometimes I forget what I am worth. I'm worth the chase. I'm worth the effort. I'm worth getting nervous for. This weekend has been yet just another reminder in an ongoing lesson. A lesson that my mind knows but also one that my mind seems to forget... more often then I would like to admit.
It seems lately I need to remind myself that I shouldn't be trying to fit this perfect mold for someone, somehow twisting myself to seem like this perfect woman. I need to change my attitude from does he like me, to I do I like him? I am fully admitting that I do take on the does he like me attitude way more frequently then I would like. I get caught up in the how do I look, do I seem witty, oh gosh I must put my best foot forward in all hopes of winning this man's affections. While the above is all right to a certain extent I need to realize that he should be trying to win me over as well. I forget that this is sort of like a dance and truth be told I really don't want to lead. And if I don't want to I really shouldn't be forced to either.
I have seen many friends change who they are in the hopes of having a certain guy like her and I'm not going to judge because I have done it as well. All of sudden I become this sports enthusiasts, and why of course I would love to watch sports center, when really all I want to do is change the channel to TBS because they are showing Steel Magnolias for the hundredth time and I know I own the DVD but you can't just not watch it! I'm just saying.
The tile of this post comes from the song Must Get Out by Maroon 5 and I really love this song so much. I listen to it when I'm down about something (mainly guys) because I could kill myself in trying to get someone to say those words you long to hear. Worrying about everything that comes out of my mouth if its okay and really that is no way to live.
This past weekend when I was celebrating a friends birthday a secret crush of mine came and it wasn't till he left the party that I had the most fun. That is when I really became me.I joined my friends in dancing without a care in the world, participating in a mock food fight, and singing at the top of my lungs to total eclipse of the heart and if I can't be that person in front of my secret crush then he is obviously not the one for me.
"I'm worth the chase. I'm worth the effort. I'm worth getting nervous for."
Damn straight. Sad that we should all need reminding of that, but so true.
Posted by: Lori | April 10, 2007 at 03:37 PM
Yep...you are definitely 100% right. It is sooo important to remember we are worth the chase and worth the effort. Men are too damn lazy I swear! I could write a mini-novel on this subject but I will save your readers my rant.
Posted by: Emily Ann | April 10, 2007 at 03:57 PM
What is it about Steel Magnolias? You cannot turn away. You should try being really obnoxious- that's how I found my husband and he loves me just the way I am!
No really, I was totally mean to him for months. It works!
Posted by: slynnro | April 10, 2007 at 04:26 PM
Mo....we all love you for you. That's when you shine. Just like we say no judgement to each other, you need to be thinking that when it comes to guys. You don't want someone to judge you for who you are or aren't. Just be Mo....the girl that we all think is beautiful and stinkin' hilarious!
Posted by: Jenny | April 10, 2007 at 10:38 PM
wow, this in conjunction with our conversation tonight...i couldn't agree with you more. one day mel, he'll be here.
Posted by: krystal | April 10, 2007 at 11:47 PM